Saturday, February 17, 2007

a point to ponder...

2 weeks of silent....certainly not hibernating... work in progress

syiok....tanjung bidara beach resort
site analysis with mr kepep...jetty photography session with tina, laying on the beach watching midnight stars with shaz, smallest roundabout in the world + crazy bus driver
- minus the mis-information = regret

hectic....2 crits in one week

sengal-sengal hati...ungu....+ singing out loud as usual

"goong"...sangap... bingung mama...oppa.... been watching princess hours in a small window while doing cad...aaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAaargghhhhhhhhhh...................

pre marriage course...6 single gals, 3 single guys, 3 & a half couples- 500 participants with only 25% guys... 1:3 ratio?

Paediatric ward HKL.... KK1, KK2, KK3, KK4, KK6, KK7, KK8, KK9, ICU, HDCU, URH, when will i find the time?

interview practical.... acting confident- success... 23rd April, 9am- HKA...

next week....

topical study....chapter 2- literature review

case study... Paediatric Institute, HKL....Paediatric wad, PPUM

crit.... all drawings....services? construction detail? structural model? model?

tourism...presentation, report compilation....

no time to elaborate, need to rest for a day... head start tomorrow...
NO gong xi fa chai for me...

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

chasing waves...

Back from Port Dickson !
11 gals- 2 bedrooms -1 bathroom- 1 tv - a beautiful beach & loads of fun


Tina's car, with me as co-pilot, + madin & shaliz
Xeem's car with fadh as co-pilot + yaya & nawar
Adda's car with emon as co-pilot + ikha


activities
pose & 'bwat cacat' photography session - the silloettes picts are so adorable!
picnic breakfast- nasi lemak, meehoon & teh tarik at the beach - sunbathing..
beach soccer - more water splashing & screaming rather game
3 rounds of banana boat ride - i'm tanned!
dinner at Songkla Restaurant- "mabuk sirap dua jag"
posing along the road with PD road signage


minus
my ghost scene with madin & shaliz dead asleep
tina's car scratch n run case
11 gals with 1 bathroom... 2 and a half hour to get everyone ready...


in a nutshell;
we had fun & it is an unforgettable experience + we're planning for next holiday already!!
sarawak perhaps?

Friday, January 26, 2007

blowing 23 candles...

mama & abah'a 32nd anniversarry, and i'm so old... i'm still wondering if i have peterpan syndrom. I'm going back to campus today since we're going to port dickson tomorrow for our strictly ladies weekend gateway... some of the programmes would include screaming to the waves, chasing the waves and lastly gethit by the waves...side activities would be pillow talk, farewell speech for nawar & fadh, motivational booster n maybe some water sports! yayy~~~

Monday, life's getting back to it's hecticness... i've taken some time off this mid term break to hibernate, since last sem break i was so busy... yet i've found out it is not in my nature to hibernate... like a topical cat trying to live a prairie rabbit's life. Just ain't me.... so been going back and forth to KAEDsince wednesday. :P

Thank you so much for the wishes.. through sms, testimonials, IMs and email :) really appreciate it! and i'm still in progress of reminding myself, how old i am..

Sunday, January 21, 2007

drizzling.... i am inside...

Mid term break for me!
time to unwind..catchup on my readings, spring clean my room, watch so much TV, and cook~~~ We're going to PD next weekend, gals only- yeyy! sanday beaches and ocean breeze.... It's also time to en-thangled my twisted mind...

We've bought fishies during Engitex. Tina, Adda & I, I name mine Boyd, since it's red & it reminded me of azim's boyd :P I've developed a new habit of talking to boyd...

I'm holding on to this...

I once had a friend who grew to be very close to me. Once when we were sitting at the edge of a swimming pool, she filled the palm of her hand with a little water and held it before me, and said this:

"You see this water carefully contained on my hand? It symbolizes Love." This was how I saw it: "As long as you keep your hand caringly open and allow it to remain there, it will always be there.

However, if you attempt close your fingers round it and try to possess it, it will spill through the first cracks it finds.

This is the greatest mistake that people do when they meet love... they try to possess it, they demand, they expect... and just like the water spilling out of your hand, Love will retrieve from you.

For love is meant to be free, you cannot change its nature.
If there are people you love, allow them to be free beings.
Give and don't expect.
Advise, but don't order.
Ask, but never demand.
It might sound simple, but it is a lesson that may take a lifetime to truly practice.
+Reminding Oath...

Saturday, January 06, 2007

scanning for shooting stars...

Ah-haaa... it's new year! I celebrated my new year by watching a neighbour firework show and falling asleep on the couch while watching star wars... I've been a sleepy head on AidilAdha, dress up with my pink kebaya & hijab & fell asleep in it, my sis even had the courtesy to snap a picture or two...

That night my schoolmates, mayo, munim, shahril & nizam drop by, catching up update bout my schoolmates, and they did complained how i'm always busy- At some point I was thinking about the classmates that i'm still in contact with, i barely have a full count. I guess only the guys made an effort to contact each other and i'm happy that they made it to my house, although it's only once a year.

Each new year for me marks how old i'm getting, yikes... i'm going to be 23- i'm so ancient.. at some times i felt guilty calling people kak, bang or pakcik when i'm buying stuff. So, i tried using dik, as a change. I for a movie on new year day with some friends, tentang bulan - it was a children movie, bout puppy love and friendship. Light movie for a laugh.

Life getting busier, submitted the group concept masterplan & yesterday he asked for individual masterplan... so tomorrow i'm going back early to kickstart on my masterplan & finish my tourism development plan for kelantan & terengganu region (2005-2010) Topical Study also needs some update, since madam will be back next week.

My muse-ing is getting back on track. I'm so yo-yo....

Saturday, December 30, 2006

when the sun shines through the clouds...

Salam Aidiladha
The other day a blood donation campaign was held at the IIUM mosque, i was so excited to see it, isn't it freaky? i guess some adneralin rush would help this miserable week. I was feeling slow, low and sleepy...
Maybe that's how an addict feels during rehab? a smoker trying to quit? ?
Geez... i guees i'm a musing -addict. It has only been 7 months, but it's hard to deny it. it's like a war in my between my head & my heart.

It's in difficult times we'd feel closer to HIM, looking up and hoping for guidance and strength to stand tall. I regret for being forgetful sometimes.

Surgamu -ungu

Segala yang ada dalam hidupku
Kusadari semua milik-Mu
Kuhanya hamba-Mu yang berlumur dosa

*Tunjukan aku jalan lurusku
Tuk menggapai surga-Mu
Terangiku dalam setiap langkah hidupku
Karena kutahu Hanya Kau Tuhanku

Allahu Akbar Allah Maha Besar
Kumemuja-Mu di setiap waktu
Hanyalah pada-Mu tempatku beteduh
Memohon ridho dan ampunan-Mu

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Flooding season...

I'm having a downturn, i want to slow down, i want to sleep, i want to walk slow and let time pass by, 11 credit hour- what should i do, my heart have revenge. Separating my life ain't going to be easy this semester, i'm trapped.
How would I learn from someone i dislike. It was not my intention, he brought it up to himself. I don't know how to make him stop. Although I've put up a face, he still don't get it. I've said it subtle-ly, it's not funny- he had to make it worst by asking if I was mad. Just apoint to be highlighted, for me- i'm consious and when people start to say how fat i am it does not stop with the words. I goes through because i know, i feel, and you don't have to make it worst by reminding me. I like who i am and how i am but you are ruining my life. Because I've started to believe again, that I don't like who I am. I've gone through this during highschool. Didn't thought that people in university would be as shallow. One thing is leading to another...
This is a bad beginning for a semester
I'm tired of hoping, sometimes I just need some hope
When we're in the dark, Allah grace always shines through.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

flowers are beautiful...

i have to work...work..work....
It's odd not having classes all through the week.. with only 12 credit hour what shall i do?
Found myself in front of the computer in +clueless mode

I had a joy ful weekend... with nothing to worry about yet i miss the pointSIX gathering on sunday... my greatest apology to azim, fadh, Pa, hanis.. etc for my absent... due to some family matters..

I was watching Grey's Anatomy... & it was what shah said struck me... how it relates to me.. being here.. an Architecture Student? last night i was wondering what am I going to do in 2 years time? there are a list of possibility and as i see it open i'm caught in the middle within what i want to do, what i love to do and what expect me to do.

I want to finish what i've started. I want to be a professional architect. I have an obligation to fulfill this, as my dad change his plan to stop practising and settle down because of me. I'm scared. As it is a huge thing for me. My dad is already in his 60's and nothing i want more rather than he doing thing he wants to do. Yet he's struggling to maintain the company... with the financial problems our family is facing. I'm stoned. I can't do much. I love the adventure. My dad never did encourage me, even try talking me out of it. I want to finish this.

I love to cook, I love to makes things beautiful. I want to be a florist, I want to open a kindergarten, I can open a SPA (as adda says it) This is my backup, for me to settle down. If I had a choice and i'm not here. I'll be there. I've been in business since i was 7, I sold sketches for my friends to color and shiny beads i cut from a broken necklace. I still have the passion for business till now. Ain't for the money but it feels good!
+
Well... back to work for me, I'm going to FRIM with me groupmates to for research on R&D facilities for our proposed Biotechnology Complex and i'm going to Langkawi again on thursday night till monday... YEY! for the the beautiful beaches and chocolates

Sunday, December 03, 2006

pink mouse *squek*squek*

Gurls day out! Love the outing with Azim & Madin, thanks gals.. really brings back the 'feel'...ain't the same without you 2~heheee... went to PC fair... bought a cooler-as planned & a cute pink mouse for my sis.. azim & madin kept diverting me so i won't stop at the booths.. as azim says it- 'i'm starting to shop for my com instead of myself....HELP!!!
Watched 'Cinta' - a heart warming story + + bring ur tissues...lucky madin brought a handful to share with azim... i'd rather let my tears flow & dry out... the movie makes us craved our own love story... Love isn't always about a guy & a gal... it's also about family and friends.
I'm confused whether i've been caring or loving... yet for me it is hard to care if the person you care for kept questioning and having doubts bout our care and feeling pity for themselves by expressing that nobody loves them.. at you, whose been caring for him.... When will he grow up?
1- So guys, please... when a gal cares for you it doesn't always mean they love you. Can't we just care?
2- When somebody seldomly says that they love you, believe- as love is not measured by how many times you say it.
3- You can't force somebody to love you because you love them. It's -stupid- because it's like asking them to cheat on you & her/himself
4- Never assume that someone you like already have a gf/bf... just asked somebody or know him or her first.... no point of losing before joining the game.
5- Life is like a book you plan the structure and it's up to you to write through... it's not a movie script that you write and follow through

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

gawd of death only eats apples...

result's out... weng chikidy chikidy weng..... only manage to get a B+ for design & research method... 2 B-minuses & yg tergezut dpt A for building economics...have I been lazy? maybe it's for being too sleepy for the whole sem... Or maybe lack of momentum... i miss axeem n madin :( 3.15???????

need to start coffee addicting myself again... need to work harder...need to dream less...need to spend this holiday like the world is goin to end so that start sem- no playing around....need to consider bout the part time job...need to hope less, need to ask moreee....
a good friend of mine is describing me as protective and rational.... while my mum sees me as fierce & boyish... and i'm still wondering in what sense am i protective.. somebody have a clue to help clueless me?
spend whole day at KLCC today... browsing around in kinokuniya, finally watching Deathnote *5/5 star rating from me* ... buying some birthday presents... eat....eat... eat... I'd also recommend On & Off King's Road at Gallery Petronas... I like how the artist explored various colour combination & layering techniques... though his sketches wasn't so *WAH*....

tomorrow goin to times square with cuzinsa & me bro... wanna watch happy feet and shop for pirated softwares at low yat! haaa....++ PC fair is on 30th... here I come!!

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

The rain makes it clear...

Spent whole day at IBS exhibition, Akademi Binaan Malaysia, Jln Chan Sow Lin... & had a short basic course for Revit... hehehe.... + dpt trial CD... Going again tomorrow (maybe)... i'm looking after the IIUM booth... Thought if would be bo-ring yet it wasn't so, informative.. just not the right venue...
I had time to think a lot during holidays... I wondered a lot... dozens of questions... if, should, would it, why did I, what was I thinking, what would happen if... most bout my life that i've put apart for the whole sem... as I load myself with work.... Bits and pieces I wanted to forget...
Today I was wondering why, going back through my memories of MRMY, I can't remember any of the bad things that happened, I was only left with the happy memories - the lovely feeling I felt. Although it is questionable whether it was true or just a 'drama'. I'm left with capture moments and it made me wondered again whether i'd feel it again someday.
I won't deny, how he cared for me made me care for myself. Maybe I just need to be reminded that I can love myself... I was fooled... I hate holidays~~~~~~~
This is me in +mode hopeless romantic so don't pay any attention to what i'm saying!

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

I love white orchids...

It it the holidays? I'm still digesting the reality that I have only10 days left to hybernate... minus the days to work on the project summary that MUST be submitted when sem 2 commence... EIk.. suddenly reminded -exam results- certainly would brighten my day -NOPE-
Five days in Shah Alam wasn't as sweet as i thought- left me feeling so -****- had a coincidence with he person that I hoped I wouldn't see again for the rest of my life... left me briefly enhance your knowledge of SARS - Shah Alam Relationship Sindrom.. established in 2002 after a series of relationship problems that occurs concurrently when 'communicating' with somebody that is rooted to any part of Shah Alam... (applicable to some cases only) please add if you have any experience of such. ~ long winding stories is welcome.
The purpose of being in Shah Alam- being the rappoteur for Conference & Workshop for Hospital Planning and Design- was informative and heavenly hospitable... missing the puddings n jellies... ntah hapeehapeee + lost- cannot exit from shah alam and end up driving in circle for an hour... Roundabout city- not my fault!
Yesterday, aisyah-anis & I helped with the posters for IBS conference- reach home 9am today and coma for 1/2 day... i'm still feeling guilty for not being there today -attend the booth- maybe tomorrow, yet i've promise someone that we'll watch Deathnote 2gether... then i've promise Madin to teach her Sketchup... on thursday... undecided...undecided.... what do you think?
I need to find some financial source... PTPTN certainly not helping... need to upgrade some parts of my com...need new power supply & cooler since it kept hanging when the temperature fluctuates.. wasn't a problem at studio since we're living at antartics... so adding some active control with a table fan... eik... hopeless..
Kakniha said i'm a hopeless romantic.. since she knows the story :) I've been blog surfing, and a blog entry are you or are you not a loser caught my attention (it was by mateen) Just want to state my opinion, that when you like someone and decide not to tell, it does not make you a loser. as long as you are satisfied with being able to feel. I know the feeling of being lost, every minute of the day with nothing to look forward to & I also know how it feels when you can't stop smiling and having warm flushed cheeks...
I took him as a muse ( as axemm says it) something to look forward to behind the door. Eventhough he have no idea of it and doesn't care at all. It would be wonderful to be loved back, yet life is no fairytales or hollywood movies... but i didn't say it is impossible... i've seen my frens that was at the right place and the right time... and I'm being happy for them :) you know who you are. In some cases, although been brought together by fate yet they choose not to listen, it doesn't have to be words it can also be care. coincidences are coincidences when you realized that it is, sometimes it's just daily routine when you seen it differently, bumping into your neighbour everyday isn't coincidence right?
I've seen people take the wrong choices yet there is no such thing as a wrong choice
I've seen people change yet it doesn't make you lose the old him
I've seen fate bringing two people together yet maybe it's just not the right time
I've seen two people fell apart yet we should say that they wouldn't meant for each other maybe just not for forever.
I've seen a guy loving two gals at once, many would say it can't be yet what if it is true?
I've seen people that loves themselves so much, that they make themself horrible
I've seen a guy who say he has othing yet he have everything
I've seen a happy couple and wonder when
I've seen people who's rich in knowledge yet poor in attitude
What if the person for you is the person you bump into along a sidewalk and you didn't even looked?
What if the person that would love you the most is standing right beside you at the cafe queue and you never turn your head?
I'm just writing out, the things that have been wondering in my head. It might be true, it might make sense when you read it. But there's no right or wrong.
I'm not strong, i'm stubborn, I'm not confident in myself, i'm not near perfect

Sunday, November 05, 2006

If I were...

nope
1 If I were a fruit I'd be a peach
2 If I were a colour I'd be white
3 If I were an animal I'd be a kitten
4 If I were a domestic appliance I'd be an oven
5 If I were a book I'd be a black hard covered journal
6 If I were a clothing item I'd be jacket
7 If I were a jewel I'd be a diamond
8 If I were an object I'd be a pen
9 If I were a car I'd be a harrier
10 If I were an element I'd be water
11 If I were a tree I'd be cherry
12 If I were a drink I'd be milk
13 If I were an ice cream flavor I'd be vanilla
14 If I were a person I'd be me
15 If I were a planet I'd be earth
16 If I were an insect I'd be a butterfly
17 If I were public transport I'd be a LRT
18 If I were a song I'd be R&B
19 If I were a movie I'd be a fantasy
20 If I were a season I'd be Autumn
21 If I were a flower I'd be a white rose
22 If I were a job I'd be a florist
23 If I were a cartoon I'd be a lulu
24 If I were a place I'd be Bay of Naples
25 If I were a gift I'd be a ribbon
26 If I were a memory I'd be a stolen glance
27 If I were a city I'd be rome
28 If I were a sense I'd be touch
29 If I were a game I'd be the dice
30 If I were a candy I'd be toffee
31 If I were a time of the day I'd be dawn
32 If I were an invention I'd be a wheel
33 If I were a bodypart I'd be lips
34 If I were a country I'd be france
35 If I were a flavor I'd be vanilla
36 If I were a sport I'd be swimming
37 If I were a smell I'd be the rain
38 If I were a subject I'd be history
39 If I were a flag I'd be plain
40 If I were a building I'd be a bridge
41 If I were a month I'd be January
42 If I were a perfume I'd be provocative
43 If I were a gummy candy I'd be raspberry
45 If I were a toy I'd be lego
46 If I were a textile I'd be Egyptian cotton
47 If I were a shape I'd be a sphere
48 If I were an answer I'd be a noun
49 If I were a common liquorice I'd be the scent
50 If I were a word I'd be smile

Sunday, October 29, 2006

HATE- dial up connection

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all!!! I'm sorry for any of my wrongdoings or badmouthing. Raye came so suddenly, time really flies by...our 2 weeks of endless nights finishing our presentation boards for portfolio and loads of assignments... eiks... my life is sooo... dateline oriented... enough work!!! i'm now worrying bout final exams.. 2,3,7 & 14 november...duh... my notes aren't complete... shuuttt.... tensinyeee..



Raye was okay, the usual routine... Mama made nasi dagang, rendang, pulut kapit and we bought sate & lemang... went to meiaji's house in Maluri.. then come back home, Chuaji's family came by, friends of family..etc... and a Uncle Baharum's family came from JB, i fell in love with my new cousin, kak lina's daughters & son.. so cute... i've never seen her before yet when she arrive she ran to me and hug me, not wanting to let go... so cute~~~ hehe...baby hazeli was cute too :P



I've just came back from kemaman.... went back on 3rd day of raya...i miss the beach. i miss the keropok lekor. i miss my cousins... & i've got all of it back~~ yey! My cousins & I went to Chendor beach, although it was a short trip... I've fulfill my craving of sandy beach & running waves :P heee.. all my 1st gen cousins was there...cha, r-piz,nana,izzat, ami, ati... and the other anak weks... from 2nd-to 3rd gen... they even play galah panjang on the beach... I got the full dosage of original kerepoklekor! ++ bringing loads of it home.. hehee.. The journey was not as tiring as before.. 4 hour drive instead of 6 hours.. i enjoyed the ride & took loads picture of eastcoast blue sky...

Tonite I went to Nadia's open house.. gathering of schoolmates, only some was able to make in, wasn't as fun as last year but it was okay... had syima storytelling bout how wild dogs ate her cat... heheee.. & momok- the fat cat of jalan baiduri drop by to say hye...meowww~~



Actually, have got loads of thing to write yet this dial up is devastatingly tensioning..
kept disconnecting... arghh.... so maybe later i'll sip some of it here and there...
`I'm so happy'...... +salam lebaran :)

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

walk slow...

it's been 10 days, 4 hours of sleep a day & 16 hours a day in front of the monitor. yesterday was the final crit-"I didn't present..." so i don't know if my design have any major problems.. duh... I hope i'll be okay during portfolio... still have to work on the construction detail and services for the final submission- 16th oct.. have 6 days left to do the board... + research method, building tech & urban design assigments...
On the 4th we had a meeting with the HOD, the result is out... we got our part 1 accredited by lam.. but only for batch 2006,2007 & 2008....it doesn't appeal to me.. it's not fair! thinking on how hard our seniors strive for it during the accreditation and they didn't get part 1 or part 2. & we as the lab rats, our course outline have been change, our practical training will be during the short sem only (3 months instead of 6) & we'll be having another studio project... eik.... <>
pointsix had a small gathering on the 6th! a treat from our white collared friends! tq guys, we really appreciate it... miss ya all so much. matpa came with his new gf :) so cute- "bertambah ipar kiterang' heehee...
had a wonderful day... i guess the walk today will keep me smiling till portfolio... i think i'm such a liar, i have the tendency (spelling?) to hide my true feelings... is it a lie? is it wrong? am i sending the wrong signal allover? argh.... sangap....

Saturday, September 30, 2006

konGouSeki

As an aquarian and second-born i'm as adaptive as water, i follow the flow and tend to be flexible, yet as 'intan' i tend to be in control and hard headed sumtimes... as azim always put it, perfectionist yet unrational... i like my 'liquidity' better than my strength.Sanscrit refer to the diamond as "kongouseki," an expression of its extreme strength and hardness. Diamond was recognized as the king among earth substances, invincible against anything previously known to man. In today's industrial world, diamonds retain their significance as a mineral hard and abrasion resistant beyond anything in the natural world.



I started using 'kongouseki' as a screen name after learning bout it from an old Japanese guy i met during my english course at British Council. Since then people kept asking bout it's meaning.
I've lost count of people asking 'intan je ke?' or 'intan ape?' My name is short, i like it that way, my parent don't like the hassle of writing long wondering names in forms. What's the use, almost everybody would use maximum 2 syllable to call u anyway. My sis name is only 'lili' & my bro, 'imran'- even imran ends with 'im'.... never had any problem running out of boxes to fill my name in forms :) + no excuse to forget my full name!



My nick 'in-thang' is actually driven from my name as in how terengganuans call me, my 'che'(grandma) called me in-thang. As my name is so universal- i've used it to make my life easier for logon name etc... as 'intan' is always -have been used.



i have a unique email add- the only i've been using since 2000, kitika_donoy2k, it was meant to be kittycat-don't-know-y2k- because at that time people was so into the 'y2k' thingy.... and i never change it again, i've got ton's of email add since 1997, yet none i can memorize except this stupid long email add that is so not serious -tried creating new adds yet all failed... so not suitable to be stated in my CV.... so how?



My favourite colour is purple, why? because it is fav primer color is red and blue. For me purple is flexible, it can look sweet and elegant at the same time, and goes with any color. I also like the combination of fuchsia pink and black -WOW- hehee... somebody said that i should be an image consultant, i'm not so sure bout it- i'm not 'SO' fashionable, just wear what feels right and makes you feel great! mix-match and always wear plain tudung for clothes that have more than 1 color motifs.. & for formal occasions never wear more than 2 colors- one must be black or white- (can be in diff. monotones)


It's already the 7th day of Ramadan, how time flies by, our final crit would be on the 9th of Oct, while submission of presentation boards is on 16th- and portfolio review- 18th-19th. +submission for assignements... so why do i still have time to blog? my bro's PC isn't adequate to do sketchup files.... so i'm browsing for infos to do my assignments for today, and i'm goin back to work at the studio tonight...(it's 1am now) maybe i should catch up in my sleep...my eyes is in 50% capacity already.... gudnite all~~~

Monday, September 25, 2006

Was I ever...Will I ever...

Yesterday I went to OU and IkEa with butet to do my case study for research method - Tumbletots, Starship Galactica & Smaland...It was fun while it lasted... i've got loads of work to do, for final crit on October 9th... i'm still having doubts- would I manage to complete all the requirements? Since our CGPAs start at 'o' again, i would be hard to cope. + all 4 theory papers and major assignments...


Today is the first day of Ramadan, how time fly~~~.... in two week we'll have our crit, and 4 weeks is hari raya.. and on 4th Dec we'll start for practical training~ sometimes it's scary when i think about it, but in someway i can't wait to experience it. I've sent my list... i actually don't mind where, as long as i'm goin. I let abah decide since he knows best. But did object to have my practical in BEP.. it's so far away... a bit 'malas' to drive all the way to tropicana... yet I still list it as my 2nd choice...


'the vine' - i've named my highrise, since the curved frame has sucessfully enhanced it's curves, i think i looks sexy. Although it look box-xy during the preliminary stage.. so from boxy to sexy? heeee... the wavy roof structured at the podium level looks like toad leaves... alltogether it's like a plant growing from the earth .
I came across this during my blog trailing activity and I want to share it with you :)
What does LOVE mean? ... (from kids' eyes)
ROBERT CLEMENTSA group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year old children:
"What does love mean?"
the answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.
When my grandma got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandpa does it for her now all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love. Rebecca- age 8
When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouths.
Billy- age 4
Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and
they go out and smell each other.
Kari- age 5
Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French Fries without making them give you any of theirs. Chrissy- age 6
Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.
Terri- age 4
Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.
Danny- age 7
My mommy loves me more than anybody.
You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.
Clare- age 6
Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken.
Elaine- age 5
Love is when mommy sees daddy smelly and sweaty and
still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.
Chris- age 7
Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.
Mary Ann- age 4
When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you. Karen- age 7
You really shouldn't say "I LOVE YOU" unless you mean it.
But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.
Jessica- age 8
My say:
When we grew older, we tend to think too much, and everything that we say are not as pure. Children say things honestly. I, in the other hand, scared of what people might think or do. So i'll write it here, although not as clear yet knowing that a part of it is out, i'd feel better.
Writing it here.
"Love is when the smile brightens your day, the words makes you blush and the presence fill the missing pieces"
- Intan age 22
I've found 'the' , yet i was not founded. I was never a 'the' and i've gone through moments that i feel that i will never be 'the'.... was I ever, will I ever?...

Saturday, September 16, 2006

a butterfly

The rain have been pouring...
I love feeling the raindrops...looking at the gloomy sky
as if there's nothing to think about for tomorrow or the day after
I love the cold wet feet, walking through wet grass...
it's been long since i've take a moment to enjoy.
I met a purple butterfly today
I kept complementing how beautiful it is
In my surprise it flew away~~
I guess it was telling me somebody's coming.
I didn't wish so, i didn't hope so...
Maybe it is how things should be,
Just smile and walk along the path.
I'm falling for frou frou's music...
Thanks to kepep generousity

frou frou...

The Dumbing Down Of Love

Well-painted passion
You rightly suspect
Impersonation
The dumbing down of love
Jaded in anger
Love underwhelms you
No box of chocolates
Whichever way you fall

And if I tell you
Lover alone without love
What will happen
Lover alone without love
Will you listen
Lover alone without love
Without love

No no I'll get this
I want to treat you
You're still not famous
And you haven't struck it rich
Under-achieving
'Cause no-one's receiving
This tunnel vision
Is turning out all wrong

And if I tell you
Lover alone without love
What will happen
Lover alone without love
Will you listen
Lover alone without love
Without love

Music is worthless unless it can
Make a complete stranger
Break down and cry

And if I tell you
Lover alone without love
What will happen
Lover alone without love
Will you miss him
Love alone without love
Without love
Without love
Without love

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Walk and walk......

The crit on friday was so-s0... still got minor changes to do and some design solution to think about, my office building looks like 'jenga' still need to figure out how it actually reflects the company...yikessss.... Didn't sleep all day, but finally fell asleep for 5 minutes on a chair, and razi took my pict- shoot... it must of looked pityful... or disasterous... i'm surely no sleeping beauty...
The week was fully occupied by my mindset that feels guilty to leave my works and have some fun... so on saturday, i had too much of quality sleep and end up with a headache....so today i enjoyed myself at low yat & times square... hed to go since i've sold off my graphic card, and bought X1300... instead of 6600 that i've been eyeing...regreting much for not looking harder for at least x1300 w/iceq..... iskk.....pasrah jela.... okla.. didn't have to add more$$$... covered by my old mobo, proc + gc.. i'm a to much thinking buyer... when i go to the pro's & con's too much i'd end up not buying..so better grab it b4 i change my mind
Pity-ing hungry + sleepy axeem as well, i've warn her to sleep early last nite... end up sleepy all day... the outing wasn't long... i considered continuing my window shopping to free my mind from sumthing... i just need to have a walk, clear it up...look up and see all the beautiful things around me, rather than being in the same routine that lingers my mind to his shadows...but end up at home, and at the same spot i was... so decided to wash my car... then i end up here.... And the shadow is back...
I miss him, yet i wish not...