Muse-ing Again

It’s been awhile

It’s been hectic

The turbulence has pass through

Left is the silence, buzzing of the empty mind

It made me hollow, it echoes

Unable to be lost in the hectic life that I longed for

Unable to shade my feelings with

Drowning in the bubbles that pops up in my mind

Hoping to have a shoulder to retreat to each day

Alone, surrounded by strangers I closed my eyes

Sunk myself in the loud noises to buffer my mind

Read myself to sleep or rather stay awake reading

I’m confused; do I really hate my life in slow mo?

Enough said.

I am looking forward to Anis’s Bachelorette party at damai!

I’ve taken leave for 18^th and 19^th December, have to settled some stuff

and on 19^th, off to damai with the girls!

Last week we had a slumber party at Shim’s since her parents went for Hajj

Shim and Dieba organized an awesome party with plenty to eat

- bbq & fried rice for dinner + other junks we chip in

Though I’m bit health conscious these days. Huhuhuu

And after dinner, we watched Sex in the City (this is not porn! just uncut version - referring to Axeem’s post at point6ix.com) and Sepi (some of us skip on it and opened a gossip circle while having supper) we ended the party the next morning with American breakfast and a photography session~

Tina and I went straight to uder’s house afterward, arriving about 3pm, helping here and there for akmal+fadzrin’s wedding. Akmal was so happy! Huhu. At about 7pm we went to Dalina’s to freshen up and entertaining the ever bouncy-ful Raes. The ceremony started at about 8.30pm- and the food was scrumptious and we had a chance to take some pictures with the lovely bride & groom, congratulations! I would have stayed longer if to enjoy the gamelan and keroncong performance if I wasn’t working the next day ++ enjoying the view- new muse – yet I doubt I’ll see him again J safe journey dear muse~

Currently, with some influence from Dalina, I’ve been occupying my mind with the images of Edward Cullen- he’s perfect… just the kind that I will never have- but drowning myself in the book, at least I can feel- smile, laugh and cry – it’s just feels good to know u still have feelings, and nurturing it at times gives me a chance to feel the warmth of being in love.. Maybe some people will label it as pathetic, yet there’s no harm in feeling alive, right? I just borrowed twilight and new moon from Dalina. I didn’t have the chance to buy – it’s all sold out- I’m dreaming to buy the box set- maybe it will be available next year? I hope so, I’m eager to know what happens next.

I have some happy news too! My position at work has been confirmed!! Alhamdulillah… I want to revamp my life for next year! Starting with spring cleaning and revamping my room during the Christmas holiday! Happy Awal Muharam~~~