gawd of death only eats apples...

result's out... weng chikidy chikidy weng..... only manage to get a B+ for design & research method... 2 B-minuses & yg tergezut dpt A for building economics...have I been lazy? maybe it's for being too sleepy for the whole sem... Or maybe lack of momentum... i miss axeem n madin :( 3.15???????

need to start coffee addicting myself again... need to work harder...need to dream less...need to spend this holiday like the world is goin to end so that start sem- no playing around....need to consider bout the part time job...need to hope less, need to ask moreee....

a good friend of mine is describing me as protective and rational.... while my mum sees me as fierce & boyish... and i'm still wondering in what sense am i protective.. somebody have a clue to help clueless me?

spend whole day at KLCC today... browsing around in kinokuniya, finally watching Deathnote *5/5 star rating from me* ... buying some birthday presents... eat....eat... eat... I'd also recommend On & Off King's Road at Gallery Petronas... I like how the artist explored various colour combination & layering techniques... though his sketches wasn't so *WAH*....

tomorrow goin to times square with cuzinsa & me bro... wanna watch happy feet and shop for pirated softwares at low yat! haaa....++ PC fair is on 30th... here I come!!

The rain makes it clear...

Spent whole day at IBS exhibition, Akademi Binaan Malaysia, Jln Chan Sow Lin... & had a short basic course for Revit... hehehe.... + dpt trial CD... Going again tomorrow (maybe)... i'm looking after the IIUM booth... Thought if would be bo-ring yet it wasn't so, informative.. just not the right venue...

I had time to think a lot during holidays... I wondered a lot... dozens of questions... if, should, would it, why did I, what was I thinking, what would happen if... most bout my life that i've put apart for the whole sem... as I load myself with work.... Bits and pieces I wanted to forget...

Today I was wondering why, going back through my memories of MRMY, I can't remember any of the bad things that happened, I was only left with the happy memories - the lovely feeling I felt. Although it is questionable whether it was true or just a 'drama'. I'm left with capture moments and it made me wondered again whether i'd feel it again someday.

I won't deny, how he cared for me made me care for myself. Maybe I just need to be reminded that I can love myself... I was fooled... I hate holidays~~~~~~~

This is me in +mode hopeless romantic so don't pay any attention to what i'm saying!

I love white orchids...

It it the holidays? I'm still digesting the reality that I have only10 days left to hybernate... minus the days to work on the project summary that MUST be submitted when sem 2 commence... EIk.. suddenly reminded -exam results- certainly would brighten my day -NOPE-

Five days in Shah Alam wasn't as sweet as i thought- left me feeling so -****- had a coincidence with he person that I hoped I wouldn't see again for the rest of my life... left me briefly enhance your knowledge of SARS - Shah Alam Relationship Sindrom.. established in 2002 after a series of relationship problems that occurs concurrently when 'communicating' with somebody that is rooted to any part of Shah Alam... (applicable to some cases only) please add if you have any experience of such. ~ long winding stories is welcome.

The purpose of being in Shah Alam- being the rappoteur for Conference & Workshop for Hospital Planning and Design- was informative and heavenly hospitable... missing the puddings n jellies... ntah hapeehapeee + lost- cannot exit from shah alam and end up driving in circle for an hour... Roundabout city- not my fault!

Yesterday, aisyah-anis & I helped with the posters for IBS conference- reach home 9am today and coma for 1/2 day... i'm still feeling guilty for not being there today -attend the booth- maybe tomorrow, yet i've promise someone that we'll watch Deathnote 2gether... then i've promise Madin to teach her Sketchup... on thursday... undecided...undecided.... what do you think?

I need to find some financial source... PTPTN certainly not helping... need to upgrade some parts of my com...need new power supply & cooler since it kept hanging when the temperature fluctuates.. wasn't a problem at studio since we're living at antartics... so adding some active control with a table fan... eik... hopeless..

Kakniha said i'm a hopeless romantic.. since she knows the story :) I've been blog surfing, and a blog entry are you or are you not a loser caught my attention (it was by mateen) Just want to state my opinion, that when you like someone and decide not to tell, it does not make you a loser. as long as you are satisfied with being able to feel. I know the feeling of being lost, every minute of the day with nothing to look forward to & I also know how it feels when you can't stop smiling and having warm flushed cheeks...

I took him as a muse ( as axemm says it) something to look forward to behind the door. Eventhough he have no idea of it and doesn't care at all. It would be wonderful to be loved back, yet life is no fairytales or hollywood movies... but i didn't say it is impossible... i've seen my frens that was at the right place and the right time... and I'm being happy for them :) you know who you are. In some cases, although been brought together by fate yet they choose not to listen, it doesn't have to be words it can also be care. coincidences are coincidences when you realized that it is, sometimes it's just daily routine when you seen it differently, bumping into your neighbour everyday isn't coincidence right?

I've seen people take the wrong choices yet there is no such thing as a wrong choice

I've seen people change yet it doesn't make you lose the old him

I've seen fate bringing two people together yet maybe it's just not the right time

I've seen two people fell apart yet we should say that they wouldn't meant for each other maybe just not for forever.

I've seen a guy loving two gals at once, many would say it can't be yet what if it is true?

I've seen people that loves themselves so much, that they make themself horrible

I've seen a guy who say he has othing yet he have everything

I've seen a happy couple and wonder when

I've seen people who's rich in knowledge yet poor in attitude

What if the person for you is the person you bump into along a sidewalk and you didn't even looked?

What if the person that would love you the most is standing right beside you at the cafe queue and you never turn your head?

I'm just writing out, the things that have been wondering in my head. It might be true, it might make sense when you read it. But there's no right or wrong.

I'm not strong, i'm stubborn, I'm not confident in myself, i'm not near perfect

If I were...

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1 If I were a fruit I'd be a peach
2 If I were a colour I'd be white
3 If I were an animal I'd be a kitten
4 If I were a domestic appliance I'd be an oven
5 If I were a book I'd be a black hard covered journal
6 If I were a clothing item I'd be jacket
7 If I were a jewel I'd be a diamond
8 If I were an object I'd be a pen
9 If I were a car I'd be a harrier
10 If I were an element I'd be water
11 If I were a tree I'd be cherry
12 If I were a drink I'd be milk
13 If I were an ice cream flavor I'd be vanilla
14 If I were a person I'd be me
15 If I were a planet I'd be earth
16 If I were an insect I'd be a butterfly
17 If I were public transport I'd be a LRT
18 If I were a song I'd be R&B
19 If I were a movie I'd be a fantasy
20 If I were a season I'd be Autumn
21 If I were a flower I'd be a white rose
22 If I were a job I'd be a florist
23 If I were a cartoon I'd be a lulu
24 If I were a place I'd be Bay of Naples
25 If I were a gift I'd be a ribbon
26 If I were a memory I'd be a stolen glance
27 If I were a city I'd be rome
28 If I were a sense I'd be touch
29 If I were a game I'd be the dice
30 If I were a candy I'd be toffee
31 If I were a time of the day I'd be dawn
32 If I were an invention I'd be a wheel
33 If I were a bodypart I'd be lips
34 If I were a country I'd be france
35 If I were a flavor I'd be vanilla
36 If I were a sport I'd be swimming
37 If I were a smell I'd be the rain
38 If I were a subject I'd be history
39 If I were a flag I'd be plain
40 If I were a building I'd be a bridge
41 If I were a month I'd be January
42 If I were a perfume I'd be provocative
43 If I were a gummy candy I'd be raspberry
45 If I were a toy I'd be lego
46 If I were a textile I'd be Egyptian cotton
47 If I were a shape I'd be a sphere
48 If I were an answer I'd be a noun
49 If I were a common liquorice I'd be the scent
50 If I were a word I'd be smile