when the sun shines through the clouds...

Salam Aidiladha

The other day a blood donation campaign was held at the IIUM mosque, i was so excited to see it, isn't it freaky? i guess some adneralin rush would help this miserable week. I was feeling slow, low and sleepy...

Maybe that's how an addict feels during rehab? a smoker trying to quit? ?

Geez... i guees i'm a musing -addict. It has only been 7 months, but it's hard to deny it. it's like a war in my between my head & my heart.

It's in difficult times we'd feel closer to HIM, looking up and hoping for guidance and strength to stand tall. I regret for being forgetful sometimes.

Surgamu -ungu

Segala yang ada dalam hidupku

Kusadari semua milik-Mu

Kuhanya hamba-Mu yang berlumur dosa

*Tunjukan aku jalan lurusku

Tuk menggapai surga-Mu

Terangiku dalam setiap langkah hidupku

Karena kutahu Hanya Kau Tuhanku

Allahu Akbar Allah Maha Besar

Kumemuja-Mu di setiap waktu

Hanyalah pada-Mu tempatku beteduh

Memohon ridho dan ampunan-Mu

Flooding season...

I'm having a downturn, i want to slow down, i want to sleep, i want to walk slow and let time pass by, 11 credit hour- what should i do, my heart have revenge. Separating my life ain't going to be easy this semester, i'm trapped.

How would I learn from someone i dislike. It was not my intention, he brought it up to himself. I don't know how to make him stop. Although I've put up a face, he still don't get it. I've said it subtle-ly, it's not funny- he had to make it worst by asking if I was mad. Just apoint to be highlighted, for me- i'm consious and when people start to say how fat i am it does not stop with the words. I goes through because i know, i feel, and you don't have to make it worst by reminding me. I like who i am and how i am but you are ruining my life. Because I've started to believe again, that I don't like who I am. I've gone through this during highschool. Didn't thought that people in university would be as shallow. One thing is leading to another...

This is a bad beginning for a semester

I'm tired of hoping, sometimes I just need some hope

When we're in the dark, Allah grace always shines through.

flowers are beautiful...

i have to work...work..work....
It's odd not having classes all through the week.. with only 12 credit hour what shall i do?
Found myself in front of the computer in +clueless mode

I had a joy ful weekend... with nothing to worry about yet i miss the pointSIX gathering on sunday... my greatest apology to azim, fadh, Pa, hanis.. etc for my absent... due to some family matters..

I was watching Grey's Anatomy... & it was what shah said struck me... how it relates to me.. being here.. an Architecture Student? last night i was wondering what am I going to do in 2 years time? there are a list of possibility and as i see it open i'm caught in the middle within what i want to do, what i love to do and what expect me to do.

I want to finish what i've started. I want to be a professional architect. I have an obligation to fulfill this, as my dad change his plan to stop practising and settle down because of me. I'm scared. As it is a huge thing for me. My dad is already in his 60's and nothing i want more rather than he doing thing he wants to do. Yet he's struggling to maintain the company... with the financial problems our family is facing. I'm stoned. I can't do much. I love the adventure. My dad never did encourage me, even try talking me out of it. I want to finish this.

I love to cook, I love to makes things beautiful. I want to be a florist, I want to open a kindergarten, I can open a SPA (as adda says it) This is my backup, for me to settle down. If I had a choice and i'm not here. I'll be there. I've been in business since i was 7, I sold sketches for my friends to color and shiny beads i cut from a broken necklace. I still have the passion for business till now. Ain't for the money but it feels good!
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Well... back to work for me, I'm going to FRIM with me groupmates to for research on R&D facilities for our proposed Biotechnology Complex and i'm going to Langkawi again on thursday night till monday... YEY! for the the beautiful beaches and chocolates

pink mouse *squek*squek*

Gurls day out! Love the outing with Azim & Madin, thanks gals.. really brings back the 'feel'...ain't the same without you 2~heheee... went to PC fair... bought a cooler-as planned & a cute pink mouse for my sis.. azim & madin kept diverting me so i won't stop at the booths.. as azim says it- 'i'm starting to shop for my com instead of myself....HELP!!!

Watched 'Cinta' - a heart warming story + + bring ur tissues...lucky madin brought a handful to share with azim... i'd rather let my tears flow & dry out... the movie makes us craved our own love story... Love isn't always about a guy & a gal... it's also about family and friends.

I'm confused whether i've been caring or loving... yet for me it is hard to care if the person you care for kept questioning and having doubts bout our care and feeling pity for themselves by expressing that nobody loves them.. at you, whose been caring for him.... When will he grow up?

1- So guys, please... when a gal cares for you it doesn't always mean they love you. Can't we just care?

2- When somebody seldomly says that they love you, believe- as love is not measured by how many times you say it.

3- You can't force somebody to love you because you love them. It's -stupid- because it's like asking them to cheat on you & her/himself

4- Never assume that someone you like already have a gf/bf... just asked somebody or know him or her first.... no point of losing before joining the game.

5- Life is like a book you plan the structure and it's up to you to write through... it's not a movie script that you write and follow through