convocation!

Yay~~yesterday was our convocation day! everybody look pretty and handsome- certainly not a common seen in studio! I was anxious at first- scared if i trip & fall on my face- hee... alhamdullilah it went well throughout the ceremony :) It's been long since i've seen abah dress up in his suit, he looked handsome and matching with mama in brown. It was a wonderful moment, + bwat sewel ngan robe taking pictures on the green field infront of CAC. Though not all of our mates was there, it was fun + he was around all day.

After the photo session I went home coz we had a family dinner + a graduation cake - on the way back pitstop at my aunt's house who've just came back from Japan~` yey.. got a geisha doll for my phone & nearly fall asleep... I'm so tired and my feet is killing me~~ tak kisah le... At least i had a wonderful day, but i still wonder when .6 will reunite again? hmm...

The BBQ reunion was also succesful- though it rained heavily in the evening- really feels like old times... missing those moment terribly, the chicken & potatoes turn out great + there was bundle of food and we had time to catch up with each other. We also received a congrats cake from madam zuraini. yummy chocolate.. :)

PointSIX gathering!

There's loads of things todo + assignments + highrise +++ day dreaming,I can't believe that our convocation is this Sunday~~ yayy + scared... due to my 2 1/2 inch heels... i'm gonna be taller than usual. It seems like i'm never gonna have enough time. Tomorrow wil certainly be hectic! This catering committee will surely end up with a headache. Yikess... My short term thinking act will crack me up today- maybe... We're going to Telekom tower at 1pm... our first study trip this semester..been long since we've had any since there was no budget for studio educational visit this semester 'green eye' since the other batches have theirs..

The gathering will be held at the courtyard with layback concept 'ala-ala startlight cinema' with some shortmovie shows.. and bbq for all~~~ i hope it will go well- tons in my to-do list, early tomorrow morning we're going to 'pasar selayang' to buy chickenss... with the constrain- our convo rehersal is at 9am...i surely wouldn't want to be smelling like a chicken during rehersal. Insya-Allah everything would be ok, i've devide the works and ask favors from the girls to come early for preparations.

Axeem is generous enough to make cup cakes~ and jelly! while some of the main course have been arrange for. I really miss the hectic studio! i'd be a wonderful night~ + catch up gossips and news.. hehee..

'My Chocolate'

Life is getting better, i felt so happy that i could help him. I can't describe it, feeling like i've been having too much chocolates :) I couldn't ask for more. Smiling all day long have been most bewildered...

I'm working on the floor plans for my Digi HQ> as he put it 'malaysia own turning torso'. Certainly twisting my mind. But i'm not all tense. Life is balancing it's way to health i guess. With straightforward plans, it's the elevations that would kill. Anyway, i'm looking in different perspectives, always reminding myself that it is not wrong to make mistakes. My turning point, i'm not being a perfectionist anymore. I'll work, I'll play. I'd glance out the window once in a while and look up to the sky, take a break to smell the rain and smile at the sun.

Researching on Khiwa, Islamic City Planning for urban design subject, it's so hard to find sources in english... kept popping up with languages that i can't even recognize the alphabets. While haven't started on building economics assignment... kept falling asleep in class. i can't keep awake if i don't participate in the discussion... ekkk.... i try stop caffein-addicting myself yet it's causing these ZZZzzzzzZZzzzzzz

Drop Dead LOW

Having a low motivation day today. Been working till early morning.. then addup to the studio hours... still worrying on the structures of my soon to be rotating highrise... + envy how the guys always catchup in later design stage. In my observation & experience, the gals always work the hardest, yet still finish last. Hope to improve myself this semester, since next sem I would be doing my practical training. Have to work +++++

I'm not sure if i'm thinking to much or hoping to much, my coincidences are becoming less smile carving, thus i'm feeling stupid + hopeless. Sometimes i feel that i'm puting my self hopes to high, wishing to much, it's in my mind right now that i don't deserve it. Arghhhhh.... i feel inferior. Tired of denying, how far back i kept it on my mind it keeps popping up. Guess the situations i've gone through in the past really had an impact on me.

How does it feel? having someone smile at a glance of you? having people blush when they hear you name? have your smile makes their day better? how the presence of you makes they felt content? I consider my friends lucky, that they have people that appreciate their presence. It's not wrong to love someone, nobody can stop you. But it is always you who wanted to, because it hurts. No matter your loved knows it or not.

Dusky day

A hectic week ~~ I spend my weekend working for KAED permenant exhibition at the main entrance with shah, today we work up late to settle the final changes and plot the boards with kak zeenat. The work wasn't difficult, just 'remeh'. Finding the relevant pictures... arranging em, including the write ups.. change colour, change fonts... blabbering at the computer when it takes so long to render... bla....bla..bla...

Had our presentation for the case study last Friday, it wuz freezing... the Citibank topic just wasn't my preference, end up being commented as 'clear but you don't have to talk like a newscaster' by bro. azri... blushin.... now i've got an alternative career I guess :P This week we're a little bit relax, and i'm still clueless, sketching the image of my highrise design in my head. I ended up submitting a last minutes work on pofessional practice subject and had a day with no motivation at all...

Until it was 9.05pm & i get out of the car, when i least expected :) and the stupid me at that moment having a huge cat in my mouth, smiled in the dark and just walk pass by... my... i'm useless in this context... It's a funny feeling, so content at one moment and feeling that my meter had gone above the speed limit. 'Feeling pink' and smiling with no reason... Am i wrong, finding my motivation in the present of him?

It's so obvious, when i search he'd be no where at sight, and the moment i turn back, he'll be there. I'm trying so hard not to hope, yet i don't seem to suceed. Maybe i should forget for a while. :)