Saturday, September 30, 2006

konGouSeki

As an aquarian and second-born i'm as adaptive as water, i follow the flow and tend to be flexible, yet as 'intan' i tend to be in control and hard headed sumtimes... as azim always put it, perfectionist yet unrational... i like my 'liquidity' better than my strength.Sanscrit refer to the diamond as "kongouseki," an expression of its extreme strength and hardness. Diamond was recognized as the king among earth substances, invincible against anything previously known to man. In today's industrial world, diamonds retain their significance as a mineral hard and abrasion resistant beyond anything in the natural world.



I started using 'kongouseki' as a screen name after learning bout it from an old Japanese guy i met during my english course at British Council. Since then people kept asking bout it's meaning.
I've lost count of people asking 'intan je ke?' or 'intan ape?' My name is short, i like it that way, my parent don't like the hassle of writing long wondering names in forms. What's the use, almost everybody would use maximum 2 syllable to call u anyway. My sis name is only 'lili' & my bro, 'imran'- even imran ends with 'im'.... never had any problem running out of boxes to fill my name in forms :) + no excuse to forget my full name!



My nick 'in-thang' is actually driven from my name as in how terengganuans call me, my 'che'(grandma) called me in-thang. As my name is so universal- i've used it to make my life easier for logon name etc... as 'intan' is always -have been used.



i have a unique email add- the only i've been using since 2000, kitika_donoy2k, it was meant to be kittycat-don't-know-y2k- because at that time people was so into the 'y2k' thingy.... and i never change it again, i've got ton's of email add since 1997, yet none i can memorize except this stupid long email add that is so not serious -tried creating new adds yet all failed... so not suitable to be stated in my CV.... so how?



My favourite colour is purple, why? because it is fav primer color is red and blue. For me purple is flexible, it can look sweet and elegant at the same time, and goes with any color. I also like the combination of fuchsia pink and black -WOW- hehee... somebody said that i should be an image consultant, i'm not so sure bout it- i'm not 'SO' fashionable, just wear what feels right and makes you feel great! mix-match and always wear plain tudung for clothes that have more than 1 color motifs.. & for formal occasions never wear more than 2 colors- one must be black or white- (can be in diff. monotones)


It's already the 7th day of Ramadan, how time flies by, our final crit would be on the 9th of Oct, while submission of presentation boards is on 16th- and portfolio review- 18th-19th. +submission for assignements... so why do i still have time to blog? my bro's PC isn't adequate to do sketchup files.... so i'm browsing for infos to do my assignments for today, and i'm goin back to work at the studio tonight...(it's 1am now) maybe i should catch up in my sleep...my eyes is in 50% capacity already.... gudnite all~~~

Monday, September 25, 2006

Was I ever...Will I ever...

Yesterday I went to OU and IkEa with butet to do my case study for research method - Tumbletots, Starship Galactica & Smaland...It was fun while it lasted... i've got loads of work to do, for final crit on October 9th... i'm still having doubts- would I manage to complete all the requirements? Since our CGPAs start at 'o' again, i would be hard to cope. + all 4 theory papers and major assignments...


Today is the first day of Ramadan, how time fly~~~.... in two week we'll have our crit, and 4 weeks is hari raya.. and on 4th Dec we'll start for practical training~ sometimes it's scary when i think about it, but in someway i can't wait to experience it. I've sent my list... i actually don't mind where, as long as i'm goin. I let abah decide since he knows best. But did object to have my practical in BEP.. it's so far away... a bit 'malas' to drive all the way to tropicana... yet I still list it as my 2nd choice...


'the vine' - i've named my highrise, since the curved frame has sucessfully enhanced it's curves, i think i looks sexy. Although it look box-xy during the preliminary stage.. so from boxy to sexy? heeee... the wavy roof structured at the podium level looks like toad leaves... alltogether it's like a plant growing from the earth .
I came across this during my blog trailing activity and I want to share it with you :)
What does LOVE mean? ... (from kids' eyes)
ROBERT CLEMENTSA group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year old children:
"What does love mean?"
the answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.
When my grandma got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandpa does it for her now all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love. Rebecca- age 8
When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouths.
Billy- age 4
Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and
they go out and smell each other.
Kari- age 5
Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French Fries without making them give you any of theirs. Chrissy- age 6
Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.
Terri- age 4
Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.
Danny- age 7
My mommy loves me more than anybody.
You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.
Clare- age 6
Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken.
Elaine- age 5
Love is when mommy sees daddy smelly and sweaty and
still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.
Chris- age 7
Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.
Mary Ann- age 4
When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you. Karen- age 7
You really shouldn't say "I LOVE YOU" unless you mean it.
But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.
Jessica- age 8
My say:
When we grew older, we tend to think too much, and everything that we say are not as pure. Children say things honestly. I, in the other hand, scared of what people might think or do. So i'll write it here, although not as clear yet knowing that a part of it is out, i'd feel better.
Writing it here.
"Love is when the smile brightens your day, the words makes you blush and the presence fill the missing pieces"
- Intan age 22
I've found 'the' , yet i was not founded. I was never a 'the' and i've gone through moments that i feel that i will never be 'the'.... was I ever, will I ever?...

Saturday, September 16, 2006

a butterfly

The rain have been pouring...
I love feeling the raindrops...looking at the gloomy sky
as if there's nothing to think about for tomorrow or the day after
I love the cold wet feet, walking through wet grass...
it's been long since i've take a moment to enjoy.
I met a purple butterfly today
I kept complementing how beautiful it is
In my surprise it flew away~~
I guess it was telling me somebody's coming.
I didn't wish so, i didn't hope so...
Maybe it is how things should be,
Just smile and walk along the path.
I'm falling for frou frou's music...
Thanks to kepep generousity

frou frou...

The Dumbing Down Of Love

Well-painted passion
You rightly suspect
Impersonation
The dumbing down of love
Jaded in anger
Love underwhelms you
No box of chocolates
Whichever way you fall

And if I tell you
Lover alone without love
What will happen
Lover alone without love
Will you listen
Lover alone without love
Without love

No no I'll get this
I want to treat you
You're still not famous
And you haven't struck it rich
Under-achieving
'Cause no-one's receiving
This tunnel vision
Is turning out all wrong

And if I tell you
Lover alone without love
What will happen
Lover alone without love
Will you listen
Lover alone without love
Without love

Music is worthless unless it can
Make a complete stranger
Break down and cry

And if I tell you
Lover alone without love
What will happen
Lover alone without love
Will you miss him
Love alone without love
Without love
Without love
Without love

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Walk and walk......

The crit on friday was so-s0... still got minor changes to do and some design solution to think about, my office building looks like 'jenga' still need to figure out how it actually reflects the company...yikessss.... Didn't sleep all day, but finally fell asleep for 5 minutes on a chair, and razi took my pict- shoot... it must of looked pityful... or disasterous... i'm surely no sleeping beauty...
The week was fully occupied by my mindset that feels guilty to leave my works and have some fun... so on saturday, i had too much of quality sleep and end up with a headache....so today i enjoyed myself at low yat & times square... hed to go since i've sold off my graphic card, and bought X1300... instead of 6600 that i've been eyeing...regreting much for not looking harder for at least x1300 w/iceq..... iskk.....pasrah jela.... okla.. didn't have to add more$$$... covered by my old mobo, proc + gc.. i'm a to much thinking buyer... when i go to the pro's & con's too much i'd end up not buying..so better grab it b4 i change my mind
Pity-ing hungry + sleepy axeem as well, i've warn her to sleep early last nite... end up sleepy all day... the outing wasn't long... i considered continuing my window shopping to free my mind from sumthing... i just need to have a walk, clear it up...look up and see all the beautiful things around me, rather than being in the same routine that lingers my mind to his shadows...but end up at home, and at the same spot i was... so decided to wash my car... then i end up here.... And the shadow is back...
I miss him, yet i wish not...

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Smelling lilies...

Ola~~~ what a joyous weekend! despite all the works i have to do for next friday crit, i've been time-wasting driving all over klang valley. Since my dad went to ulu slim forest to give some 4WD driving tutorials, its girl's weekend out!... heee.. & today i went food hunting with butet & adi.. I got bouquets of roses & & lilies + grad bear for as post-convo gifts- I also manage to persuade adi to buy the gorgeous black shirt for his company dinner. Try out OLDTOWN cafe in Jusco! the coffee just remind me of kopi kawe hai peng back in kemaman... it's been awhile since i've gone back, it was always awaited when my gramps was alive but now i'd feel like a stranger there..

My computer had PMS today... i guess.. so i can't do my work.. after some cleanup here & there it's getting better... might as well start working with the 3D again. Tomorrow i'm going back to campus, 3 days class free work- some people call it mid term break.. for me it's just an excuse not to have any interference to focus on my studiowork. I'm worried<>

+++ A tribute to MUTA+++
i've been whinning bout how 'sombong' Muta have been since sem 1 starts..
she wouldn't sleep in our studio like she always does
she won't come when i call
i've been seeing her less...
thought that it's because we've change studio
it was answered last week,
Muta died... i pick her up and put her in the hole we dug, under a tree..
Good bye muta...
guess she don't want us to miss her...
But Moorty, her successor is around..
Maybe i'd call her Muta jr>

I want to divert my heart calls or just put it on hold- I need work...i need work... i need work.. wait a minute... i have loads already... O.K.... let's work...da~~~